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sometimes, u feeel like ur life;s one big blur eh?
thats how i feel now actually.
i dont feel part of this family anymore,
nor do i wanna be init :)

i'd rather stay alone . sometimes i feel it's so hard to put on a mask everyday, hiding all the pain i feel.
i hate sympathy, thats why.
i dont like people to take pity on me, well that's when my stupid ego kicks in.

everyone;s changing u see. for the better or worse, it differs from person to person. we'll see how it goes as time passes. everyone will move on.
"You;ll be strong when the time comes"
UH HUH.
neways, am really sick and tired of being taken for granted. do you even realize that i;m there all the time?that i;m probably the only one with such patience? well now i;m not going to be there any longer. whats the point, you know? wats the point?:)
stupid family, adding stress to my already screwed up life -.-
YEESHHHHHH~

*am hugging dear bambi and thumper real tight now*

i promise i wont blog so emo-ly from now on *crosses fingers* :P
anyways, when i;m sad and i have noone else to turn to, i write. when i;m happy or wanna share an occasion , i write. i write cause it makes me feel better and in a way, i feel liberated :)

oh well, till another time, needs to find some TIM TAMS to gobble down now =D

lots of love,
Jean