son of a bitch.

i'm damn sad and annoyed.
fuck my family,
i haveto hold myself back everytime.
i just wanna move out. if i;m the burden and the fucking root to all the damn problem in this fucking house, what the heck is keeping you from letting me stay somewhere else. i really dont fuckin understand.

i cried,waste of time, waste of tears.
utter bullshit la , what they say, what they all say.
mum always says " family are the one who will stay with u while frens will leave u one day"
FUCK OFF LA.
FAMILY STAY WITH U??
WHAT FUCKING FAMILY???
STAY ASS AR. all of my problems, when i confront my friends about it, they actually TRY to help me. what the fuck will u try to do if i tell u my problem??
NOTHING. U GUYS DONT EVEN FLINCH.

i;m sick.
i;m literally sick. none of you know that.
well i am, i;m tired of carrying this baggage around like a fool.
when i need you the most, you're not there for me, at all.
sigh.
i wasted enough tears, i told myself that, enough.

on top of that, i haveto start doing daily chores now,
stupid maid stole stuff n gt fired.urgh.
and i cant sleep.
been sleepin few hrs only everyfucking day.

thx bloggie , you're probably the only reason i stay sane.
i can actually write how i feel out here with certainty that u wont be annoyed at my rants.
and if any of you readers wanna start giving sillly comments again like
" appreciate yr family " " dont say tht bout ur family " etc.
u obviously dnt have a screwed up family like mine,
and i;m glad u do have a family that u love.
unfortunately i dont love mine, AT ALL. so dnt even drop any of those comments pls.

My FRIENDS are my FAMILY.


Jean