sigh

i;m leaving to melbourne soon :(
i found out bout it approximately 3 days ago. i have exactly 10 more days here .
WTF
WTF
WTF

i;m excited , dont get me wrong. to go to a new place,
new environment, to be independant, to start leaving on my own, i AM .
the best part is i get to run away from my mum,
WOOHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO.

but the thought of leaving my friends behind, no words, can describe the immense pain i feel while typing this.
i;ll miss every single joke they make, every single time we spend mocking each other and every single lil thing they do just to make me smile.every single hug i get (by force or willingly) , every single insult they throw to me.
my friends, are my loved ones, and i seriously cant imagine the day when i leave,
where i might not be able 2 see any of them for a year or so. how can i bare with that :S
i know i;ll make my new friends there, i'll move on, i;ll be better there, concentrate better and so on.but fuck it, why the rush, why . =(


as i;m the topic about friends, finally FINALLY i can see.
who treats me like a friend, who treats me with the LEAST respect, who actually dont give to flying fucks about me, who's actually there to catch me at my weakest woman, who actually lends me a listening ear when i need it, who's just there by my side, or my shoulder to lean on when necessary, who hurts me and acts nonchalantly, who's teh major pieceof shitass cunt who needs to grow up,who claims i;m their friend but treats me like something they love to step on, you know, I KNOW who;s who. but i cant do anything about it, i just haveto SMILE. why? cause thats what;s necessary at the moment, just smile and act like everything;s fine.

i know i might have not long anymore,
u understand rite?

love,
Jean