seriouslyyy?

dear diary,

i am no longer emo bout the same things. in fact, i think i grew up it some sense that i'm no longer that angry or sad about stuffs anymore. i jst learned through experiece, i cant expect anyone to be a good friend jst because i think i;m one to them.
betrayal, apparantly happens to anyone at all. I may not be a good person, but i;m an awesome friend.(SELF PRAISE MUCH :D) so knowing that u betrayed me and told my secrets out made me cry. knowing that u promised and cause i trusted u hurt my feelings. knowing that eventhough i was so freaking sad yesterday, i still love u to bits cause u're u,u're my person. and that made me pissed at myself.

thts hw i;m gonna take things from nw on. being naive and expect good things in return isnt how life goes. Life suppose to be evil and challenging, not enduring and easygoing.so fine,frm nw on, i'll accept all the bullshit, cry a lil, be sad a lil, and think of the positive things of the fella, and forget everything. i'll give u anotehr chance cause i'll somehow trust u and will always sayang u.


i know rumours are spreading and bullshit.i know.i'm not THAT dumb.
i know things are said behind my back.
somehow i hear such nonsensical rumours its nt funny anymore and you know what.
i dont bother anymore.
i wont bother to correct the rumours cause its so.....
childish.
like i say i have tried my best to be a good friend.
i certainly DO NOT deserve this. tht i knw.
sooo people talk, i;m just gonna let it be.
cause whats the point of even tryin to correct it if rumours are gonna pop out again.



on another topic.
I THINK
its ridiculous that parents think i'm bad influence to their children.

first of all, altho i'm a lazy ass, i always advice my friends to study.
i try to ask them to not drink.
i try my best to ask them to avoid ciggies n drugs.
i do my best for them n help them anyway if i can.
n i take care of them.
make sure they take their proper meals.
cook for them if i can, cover them up before they sleep etc.

SO YES, i find it mighty FREAKING insulting for parents who think that i am such a freaking bad influence cause i certainly am not.


anyways, enuf with the ranting :D

kimmy, pb's gf came n visit aus like weeks bck!
had fun with her around!
n katie started work so cant hangout with her much d :(
but she cameoer durin the weekends !
sher also started class d:( snifffffffffffffffffs
sigh and i started class at 830, now its almost 2. and it ends at 5 :(
my class schedule are so hectic, i offically have NO life.

jk.
i always skip classes :D:D

and thx readers to those who send me sweet and cute emails who made me smile!!!!!

and on a random note, i miss all of u bck home.
michh babeeee!heng bfbf! pra! timmy kor! asc ah ken! xipet liang! rekha pretty! hollow jewin! slavey ikhwan ! and so many more :(

neways shall blog soon,
love,
jean