jean.apparently

sometimes i wish we;ve never met

2011-06-14T16:49:00.002+08:00

i miss the time,
where i dont cry for reasons such as u.
where when one tear cmes outta my eye
u were there to wipe it.
i miss the other times when u were always there
there to catch me when i wasnt strong enough
to stand on my own.

nw, when i cry, u walk away.
when i tell u hw i feel, u shut down.
sometimes holding on just makes me a fool.

life.goes.on.

2011-04-06T20:30:00.004+08:00

Dear readers,

Emotionally, I;m drained.
Tired of putting a happy front all the time.
Tired of smiling when i dont feel like it.
Tired of lying again and again.
Tired of feeling pain alone.
Tired of knowing what's right yet cant seem to do it.
Tired of proving a point
Tired of not knowing what to expect and what would happen next.
Tired of JUST WAITING.
WAITING for what could or could not happen.
I;m tired and scared.

Jean

because of you

2011-02-04T18:37:00.003+08:00

hello dear readers,

i"m such a terrible blogger arent I?
i havent been blogging in ages.
I blame the job i had tht make me pretty sad and lifeless.
AFter my job however, went to Langkawi with awesome friends and also SIngapore with loved ones :)

Its CNY babeh!
I know its the eating festival and the angpow collecting moment :)
Hope all of u collects many many angpow and have a prosperous new year !
random note : this year angpow nt so productive in collecting :(
i cant wait to go bck to Austalia soon but at the same time i;m really sad that i;m leaving my awesome friends behind :( HOWWWWWWWWW
and sadly i havent found a place to stay yet SNiFFs , super sad.

The cons bout Australia is tht i gained a substantial amount of unwanted weight and people somehow is giving me shit about it. it really pisses me off. i dont need ur opinion about my looks or size. U dont see me pointing my finger at ur weight height or ur looks. SHEESH, self rant for alil while here :D i'm confident enough to walk around without hiding in self pity like u.
hehehehe. i blame the junk food XD

Below are some pictures :

OMG miss these like crazy :(

love this retard :)

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my bestie (:

love love lovee

people i cherist alot (: frm the bottom of my heart

seriouslyyy?

2010-08-10T11:50:00.002+08:00

dear diary,

i am no longer emo bout the same things. in fact, i think i grew up it some sense that i'm no longer that angry or sad about stuffs anymore. i jst learned through experiece, i cant expect anyone to be a good friend jst because i think i;m one to them.
betrayal, apparantly happens to anyone at all. I may not be a good person, but i;m an awesome friend.(SELF PRAISE MUCH :D) so knowing that u betrayed me and told my secrets out made me cry. knowing that u promised and cause i trusted u hurt my feelings. knowing that eventhough i was so freaking sad yesterday, i still love u to bits cause u're u,u're my person. and that made me pissed at myself.

thts hw i;m gonna take things from nw on. being naive and expect good things in return isnt how life goes. Life suppose to be evil and challenging, not enduring and easygoing.so fine,frm nw on, i'll accept all the bullshit, cry a lil, be sad a lil, and think of the positive things of the fella, and forget everything. i'll give u anotehr chance cause i'll somehow trust u and will always sayang u.

i know rumours are spreading and bullshit.i know.i'm not THAT dumb.
i know things are said behind my back.
somehow i hear such nonsensical rumours its nt funny anymore and you know what.
i dont bother anymore.
i wont bother to correct the rumours cause its so.....
childish.
like i say i have tried my best to be a good friend.
i certainly DO NOT deserve this. tht i knw.
sooo people talk, i;m just gonna let it be.
cause whats the point of even tryin to correct it if rumours are gonna pop out again.

on another topic.
I THINK
its ridiculous that parents think i'm bad influence to their children.

first of all, altho i'm a lazy ass, i always advice my friends to study.
i try to ask them to not drink.
i try my best to ask them to avoid ciggies n drugs.
i do my best for them n help them anyway if i can.
n i take care of them.
make sure they take their proper meals.
cook for them if i can, cover them up before they sleep etc.

SO YES, i find it mighty FREAKING insulting for parents who think that i am such a freaking bad influence cause i certainly am not.

anyways, enuf with the ranting :D

kimmy, pb's gf came n visit aus like weeks bck!
had fun with her around!
n katie started work so cant hangout with her much d :(
but she cameoer durin the weekends !
sher also started class d:( snifffffffffffffffffs
sigh and i started class at 830, now its almost 2. and it ends at 5 :(
my class schedule are so hectic, i offically have NO life.

jk.
i always skip classes :D:D

and thx readers to those who send me sweet and cute emails who made me smile!!!!!

and on a random note, i miss all of u bck home.
michh babeeee!heng bfbf! pra! timmy kor! asc ah ken! xipet liang! rekha pretty! hollow jewin! slavey ikhwan ! and so many more :(

neways shall blog soon,
love,
jean

oh yea babey! pics

2010-08-06T08:24:00.000+08:00

KATIE :D:D

here are some pics of people I love in melb , sorry dam lazy caption today hehe:)
sorry dear jean-apparantly-ers for the lack of updates!
neways, i;m glad to inform u guys i'm non-emo jean now:D:D
NEMO JEANO!!!!!! =D

so yea!
stay tune , more pics comin up :D
need 2 go nw, classs startin in like 20 secs!

ps. getting hurt is part of life

LOVE,

JEAN !!

LOVE NEVER HAPPENS

2010-04-26T19:52:00.004+08:00

u know sometimes, when u're just confused?
and wonder what the fuck is going on with ur life.
i;ve been doing that shit.
well i realize now while blogging that i;m not THAT confused anymore.
i was. i kept on thinking, over and over again about what is and what isnt.

it was right in front of me.
i know what i want now.
i can reach it, but will never get to keep it.fuck

isit respect i want?NO.
isit money? NO.
love perhaps? haha.
love, fucking ironic thing.
in 2 months, 7 of my frens have experienced bitter love.
not any type of easy bittersweet love,
like the suffocating, wth is going on type of love.
i dont trust it anymore.
well, technically i;m 20 , so everyone gets hurt this age rite?
NOT THE POINT. why do we bother?
getting ourselves in shitass situations. falling into the major shithole they call love.
okay, i knw i;m ranting, bare with me.
this has turn into an emo blog sheesh. i PROMISE i;ll upload more pics next time people.
stop spammin my email -______-

where was i?
oh yes, love. if u found it, great ! good for u (:
but jst be careful. ANYTHING CAN HAPPEN.
i'm so agitated now thinking of all the bad things that hv happened before,
whether it is my own experienced or someone's else. haha. silly me?? lol
Its hard to pretend you love someone when you don't
but its harder to pretend that you don't love someone when you really do.
sometimes when u try and try , and if u knw u have done nothing wrong.
u MUST let go. cause if u dont, u will suffer, thats what i can seee.
People think it's holding on that makes you stronger,
but sometimes it's letting go which shows ur character n ur strength.

i;m giving advice to u my readers who jst got out of any bad relationships,
move on , live life happily.
remember, dont be sad because its over, be HAPPY that it happened.
those who got of a bad relationship, listen .
TRY to let go, dnt think of anything else, it helps alot.
here to jst advice u based on my pass experience.

promise i;ll try my best to upload more pics and nt be so emo haha.
sorry again dear jean-apparently-ers :)

love,
the hypocrite jean

MELB!

2010-03-07T17:47:00.013+08:00

hellow people,. this is my first post in melb :)
well, so far so gooooooooood :D
i'm loving it here, the freeeeedom is AWESOMEEE~
unfortunately i'm missin everyone bck in msia sooo much ! SNIFFS :(

i miss korkor :( i misss him bullying me always =(
i miss bfbf :( shopping n talking shit with him =(
i misss my baby pra :( going out during midnite to KFC just to eat :(
i miss EVERYONE :( :(:(

sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh~
i really wish i can transport them by my side, then i can have my perfect life :)
well, i know i;m not gettin much healthier here-.-
the portion of food is HUGE but yummmay!! damm gooooood food :D:D
hehehe, things here such as shopping is awesomee i swear!!!!!!

met few awesome girls here :):)

miss katie ,shereen , joyie , nanaaaaa my darlings who;re always here for me!!!

love them like crazeeeeeeeeeeee :)

gonna blog some other time soon.

love,

Jean

ps. i deserve so much better than u .

sigh

2010-02-09T00:08:00.002+08:00

i;m leaving to melbourne soon :(
i found out bout it approximately 3 days ago. i have exactly 10 more days here .
WTF
WTF
WTF

i;m excited , dont get me wrong. to go to a new place,
new environment, to be independant, to start leaving on my own, i AM .
the best part is i get to run away from my mum,
WOOHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO.

but the thought of leaving my friends behind, no words, can describe the immense pain i feel while typing this.
i;ll miss every single joke they make, every single time we spend mocking each other and every single lil thing they do just to make me smile.every single hug i get (by force or willingly) , every single insult they throw to me.
my friends, are my loved ones, and i seriously cant imagine the day when i leave,
where i might not be able 2 see any of them for a year or so. how can i bare with that :S
i know i;ll make my new friends there, i'll move on, i;ll be better there, concentrate better and so on.but fuck it, why the rush, why . =(

as i;m the topic about friends, finally FINALLY i can see.
who treats me like a friend, who treats me with the LEAST respect, who actually dont give to flying fucks about me, who's actually there to catch me at my weakest woman, who actually lends me a listening ear when i need it, who's just there by my side, or my shoulder to lean on when necessary, who hurts me and acts nonchalantly, who's teh major pieceof shitass cunt who needs to grow up,who claims i;m their friend but treats me like something they love to step on, you know, I KNOW who;s who. but i cant do anything about it, i just haveto SMILE. why? cause thats what;s necessary at the moment, just smile and act like everything;s fine.

i know i might have not long anymore,
u understand rite?

love,
Jean

kay's backkk! :)

2010-02-04T09:43:00.007+08:00

kay';s back for a few days to KL only , sadly :(
if only she could stay longer !!!!! rawr
shall miss her dearly when she;s gone, well unless i go syd study soon, which is a high probability.

some of the things we did when she was down >>>

ate many2 dimsum :)

BEWARE! camwhoring ALERTT >> :P

we watched universal soldiers!! super gruesome, but i liked it in a way! hahahha
and also erm Fame!! :):) awesome performance by everyone :)

we stayed at the hotel for 2 nites >>

and went lunch with my slut in pasta zanmai :)

some other random pics >>>

all in all i had a great time with her.
we do have our ups n downs , but i know no matter what, she'll always remain my buddy and my bestie cause in some screwed up way,i dunno how she does it, but somehow she understands me:)
she listens to me ,she's always there for me, as she should know, i would always be for her. always.
my dear friend, all the best in sydney k? and pray hard i can go there :)
thx again for everything u've done for me.
for being there for me, even at the wee hours in the morning.
for calling me at unearthly hours just to make sure i;m fine :)
for always not giving up on me.
this may sound gay *screw it*
but i do love u my dear friend :D *besides i stalked u bathing before *huhuhuhu =D =D

and yes , i met an accident yesterday, my luck is somehow going down the drain, yuno? :S
sigh. neways on a totally uber random note, i;m eating wasabi pees now =D
lots of Love,
Jean

Boys, these are some tips on what girls want :)

2010-02-03T04:24:00.003+08:00

1 . Touch her waist.
2. Actually talk to her.
3. Share secrets with her.
4. Give her your jacket.
5. Kiss her slowly.

Are you remembering this?

6. Hug her.
7. Hold her.
8. Laugh with her.
9. Invite her somewhere.
10. Hangout with her and your friends together.

KEEP READING

11. Smile with her.
12. Take pictures with her.
13. Pull her onto your lap.
14. When she says she loves you more, deny it. Fight back.
15. When her friends say i love her more than you, deny it. fight back and hug her tight so she cant get to her friends. it makes her feel loved.

Are you thinking of someone?

16. Play with her hair .only if she hasnt spent 382745623 hours on it .
17. Kiss her unexpectedly.
18. Hug her from behind around the waist.
19. Tell her shes beautiful.
20. Tell her the way you feel about her.

One last thing you need to do to show her you actually do mean it.

21. Open doors for her, walk her to her car- it makes her feel protected, plus it never hurts to act like a gentleman.
22. Tell her shes your everything – only if you mean it.
23. If it seems like there is something wrong, ask her- if she denies something being wrong, it means SHE DOESNT WANT TO TALK ABOUT IT- so just hug her
24. Make her feel loved.
25-kiss her in front of OTHER girls you know!!!!*

THEY MIGHT DENY IT BUT THEY ACTUALLY LIKE
AND KINDA WANT YOU TO TICKLE THEM

26-dont lie to HER.*
27-DONT cheat on her.*
28-take her ANYWHERE she wants
29-txt messege or call her in the morning and tell her have a good day at work {or school}, and how much you MISS her.
30-be there for her when ever she needs you, & even when she doesnt need you, just be there so shell know that she can ALWAYS count on you.*

ARE YOU STILL READING THIS? YOU BETTER BECAUSE, ITS IMPORTANT

31. Hold her close when shes cold so she can hold YOU too.
32. When you are ALONE hold her close and kiss her.*
33. Kiss her on the CHEEK; (it will give her the hint that you want to kiss her).*
34 . While in the movies, put your arm around her and then she will automaticall y put her head on your shoulder, then lean in and tilt her chin up and kiss her LIGHTLY.
35. Dont EVER tell her to leave even jokingly or act like youre mad. If
shes upset, comfort her.

REMEMBER ALL THESE THINGS WHEN YOU ARE
WITH HER NEXT

36. When people DISS her, stand up for her.*
37. Look deep into her EYES and tell her you love her.*
38. Lay down under the STARS and put her head on your chest so she can listen to the steady beat of your heart, link your fing ers together while you whisper to her as she rests her eyes and listens to you .
39. When walking next to each other grab her HAND.*
40. When you hug her HOLD her in your arms as long as possible*

MAKE SURE SHE KNOWS SHES LOVED

41. Call or text her at night to wish her SWEET DREAMS*
42. COMFORT her when she cries and wipe away her tears.*
43. Take her for LONG walks at night.
44. ALWAYS Remind her how much you love her.*
45. sit on top of her and tell her how much u love her and then bend down to
her face and kiss her while sitting on her.

youll never know when she needs just a lil more love.

lots of love,

Jean

son of a bitch.

2010-01-31T12:02:00.002+08:00

i'm damn sad and annoyed.
fuck my family,
i haveto hold myself back everytime.
i just wanna move out. if i;m the burden and the fucking root to all the damn problem in this fucking house, what the heck is keeping you from letting me stay somewhere else. i really dont fuckin understand.

i cried,waste of time, waste of tears.
utter bullshit la , what they say, what they all say.
mum always says " family are the one who will stay with u while frens will leave u one day"
FUCK OFF LA.
FAMILY STAY WITH U??
WHAT FUCKING FAMILY???
STAY ASS AR. all of my problems, when i confront my friends about it, they actually TRY to help me. what the fuck will u try to do if i tell u my problem??
NOTHING. U GUYS DONT EVEN FLINCH.

i;m sick.
i;m literally sick. none of you know that.
well i am, i;m tired of carrying this baggage around like a fool.
when i need you the most, you're not there for me, at all.
sigh.
i wasted enough tears, i told myself that, enough.

on top of that, i haveto start doing daily chores now,
stupid maid stole stuff n gt fired.urgh.
and i cant sleep.
been sleepin few hrs only everyfucking day.

thx bloggie , you're probably the only reason i stay sane.
i can actually write how i feel out here with certainty that u wont be annoyed at my rants.
and if any of you readers wanna start giving sillly comments again like
" appreciate yr family " " dont say tht bout ur family " etc.
u obviously dnt have a screwed up family like mine,
and i;m glad u do have a family that u love.
unfortunately i dont love mine, AT ALL. so dnt even drop any of those comments pls.

My FRIENDS are my FAMILY.

Jean

genting , kay;s farewell, timmys bday :)

2010-01-31T02:24:00.000+08:00

this time, i went to genting in the morning :)
a whole different experience than going in the middle of the night ahaha.
went with timmy's ACCA frens, awesome people =)
jalanmee supposed to go but canceled last minute *slaps*

2 cars went up, one was mine >>
nam the driver, and sis in law fiona :)
thts the gorgeous eevon :)
us girls, thats grace :)
group pic!! nicholas, grace, eevon, kent , nam, me, fiona and timmy :)

we passed the height limit =D
went to cyclone 1st and off to corkscrew !!!
korkor and i didnt have the balls to sit the solero shot -.-
neways plenty of snacking talking and also timmy got a teddy for fiona!!=D
then we went to dinosaur land, DAM LAME -_______-
korkorkena buttsecks o

and he says i fails xDon our boat :)

nam on merry go round~

us girls :)

off we went 2 marybrown for lunch =D then we headed 2 epic snow world!!
had loads of fun there, throwin snowballs and sittin the epic ice slide XD

overall, a real tiring day, but had loads of fun =D
much loves people :)

*
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this is SOO overdue, but here are thepics for kay;s farewell and also timmy's bday:)

ENJOY readers >>

badboys are always cathcing my eyes **

lots of love,
Jean

the talk

2010-01-27T00:47:00.003+08:00

If I didn't care more than words can say
If I didn't care would I feel this way?
If this isn't love then why do I thrill?
And what makes my head go round and round
While my heart stands still?

If I didn't care would it be the same?
Would my every prayer begin and end with just your name?
And would I be sure that this is love beyond compare.
Would all this be true if I didn't care for you?

just some awesome lyrics i wanted to share :)

shall update more bout my recent genting trip :)
and loads of pics from last year during the period i didnt blog .

Love,
Jean

sick and tired

2010-01-25T01:43:00.004+08:00

i'm sick and tired.
sick and tired of everything,
my question is, why the hell am i still trying.
why am i still crying.
why am i still hoping.
HOPE. they say its important for us as humans to live on.
hope in others, hope in the good of the rest, and hope in ourselves.
hope that they will be a better person, hope that someday things might change,hope that one day the mistreated will earn respect,
hope that time can be turned back and we can redo our mistakes.

they say , have faith.
all i can say is ' faith my ass'
i shant try anymore, its worthless.
i;m really running outta time, might as well spend my time doing whats right eh??

on a totally uber random note, i am sooo addicted to durians -.-

lots of love,
Jean

ps. i saw an awesome black cheongsam XD
lol

primary class reunion :)

2010-01-23T15:32:00.008+08:00

dear bloggie,

i;m gonna start updating you with more pictures as requested in my mails instead of emo-talks :P
this was quite some time ago, my primary class reunion :)
i studied at Lick Hung, class of 6B to be exact.
went to italianese for dinner, it was an awesome gathering.
loads of gossips n WOW, did everyone change or what =)

lemme introduce to you my primary classmates dear readers >>

meet farah and carmen :)
thats sean han,becky , diana n hui yee :)
meet diana the gorgeous :)
the beautiful melissa and karen :)
thats us girls :)
the pretty organizer, lynn shane :)
thats tiong aka tong sampah on the far left :)
a group picture of us all :)
stupid sean han and i :D

melissa :D:Ddiana :):)
becky :):)
thats james, the naughty one in primary :)
boon shing and pearly :)

thats momoko in white :)carmen and i :)

cutee yi xin in the middle :)

meet rodson :D:D

thats joel :)

ahh, meet kengyew, my primary crush LOL
*why am i writing it out here, i do not know -.-*

thats adrian n jerry :)

last but not least, thats max :)

ookie, i;m going dinner now :)
shall update soon, promise with more pics.

lots of love,
Jean

life changes.

2010-01-21T17:40:00.005+08:00

i'm not myself today.
i'm not. always with the bad news.
i wanna smile, you know?
i wanna smile real hard, and mean it, but i cant.
i was always haunted with the fact that something bad is gonna happen,
to prepare myself you see?
and you know when it does happens, i can be prepared.
well lemme put it this way, i;m still NOT prepared.

i only want you few to be there for me,
be my shoulder, tell me things will be alright.
that i'll be alright.
even if i know i wont.
but when i needed you the most, such as now. you cant even sense the fact that i'm hurt. i wasted tears for all of this shit, and i ask myself again.
what's the point.
what's the dam point.
i dont see it anymore,
if i'm leaving now, wat is the point.
my only question is.
would you even blink an eye if i was gone. would you even care?

people say, appreciate what you have now.
i am doing it. yet i dont feel appreciated.
then again, it has never been about me, has it?
shit i'm just typing and typing crap i feel again.
sorry dear bloggie :(

well, to talk bout my daily life, my life is full of unlucky events.
for starters, my car.
then, my crazy ass mum.
then, well my belongings.
then, my health.
basically my life;s screwed.

i try to live everyday like it will be last now,
so i can appreciate everything.
i keep telling and reminding myself, to start.
start letting things go, one at a time.
slowly and surely, everyone else can pull through. i shall stay positive.
yes, positivity.
i shall find more company nowadays. shant waste anytime now =)
i know who i;ll miss the most , i know.

oh well, life is a challenge.
i finally understood what that means.

lots of love,
Jean

i have only one wish , i mentioned before.
its silly.
but i wanna be kissed under the rain :)i do feel like the rose. broken beyond repair.

momentum

2010-01-20T02:22:00.003+08:00

sometimes, u feeel like ur life;s one big blur eh?
thats how i feel now actually.
i dont feel part of this family anymore,
nor do i wanna be init :)

i'd rather stay alone . sometimes i feel it's so hard to put on a mask everyday, hiding all the pain i feel.
i hate sympathy, thats why.
i dont like people to take pity on me, well that's when my stupid ego kicks in.

everyone;s changing u see. for the better or worse, it differs from person to person. we'll see how it goes as time passes. everyone will move on.
"You;ll be strong when the time comes"
UH HUH.
neways, am really sick and tired of being taken for granted. do you even realize that i;m there all the time?that i;m probably the only one with such patience? well now i;m not going to be there any longer. whats the point, you know? wats the point?:)
stupid family, adding stress to my already screwed up life -.-
YEESHHHHHH~

*am hugging dear bambi and thumper real tight now*

i promise i wont blog so emo-ly from now on *crosses fingers* :P
anyways, when i;m sad and i have noone else to turn to, i write. when i;m happy or wanna share an occasion , i write. i write cause it makes me feel better and in a way, i feel liberated :)

oh well, till another time, needs to find some TIM TAMS to gobble down now =D

lots of love,
Jean

kissed under the rain :)

2010-01-18T19:04:00.002+08:00

my day was so unproductive.
basically it was cococrunch, onlining and pizzas.
thats it -____-
gosh i need to get a life.
and my mum's comin back 2morrow, i feel my freedom flying away :(
sniffs :'(

on a random note, i really feel like everything;s changing, not in a good way.

Love,
Jean

jeremy's 19th :):)

2010-01-15T19:15:00.000+08:00

11/1/2010

today marks the day of jalan~mee's 19th bday :D:D:D

we celebrated earlier tho, on a saturday(9th) :)
all of us headed to picadilly's around 10 or so.well supposedly 9, but you know , malaysians *shakes head*

YEAY! the 1st time the boys praise my cake :D:D
isnt it prettty =D

thats bfbf, heng :D
one of the many towers they ordered :D
thats my moron, yau :D
timmy started candid-ing me >> -.-

WHY CANT U PEOPLE SMILE :(

notice chee liang and his healthiness :D
itu korkor ku syg :D

look at the bday boy , i swear -.-

itulah parny :D:D
bday boy eating his fried nasi lemak :D:D
thats handsome , korkor, hollow, han :D
seriously -______-

SMILE, can?
finally the singing song time :D:D
fuish look at heng's face :D

WHEEEEE :D
a sincere smile there, finally huhu :D
inilah BFF bodo saya :D
muka cmi >> kena cake xD

kelian ~ =p

notice hw the fork is poking me -____- and the finger below covering me-_____- thats my korkor;s doing ish ish

a finally decent picture :D:D
okay i was dam high here already XD
so was korkor :P

they played some slapping hand game, heng;'s hand i swear, they;re made of steel!! omg slap until everyone;s hand red like freaking tomatoes hAhahhaha
was real high that day , all of them :P
hope u had a great time mr jalanmy!!!!!!:)

went to his hse after that with han yau shing pra n cheeliang to watch paranormal activity! i SHIT YOU NOT, the show is DAM UBER SCARY!!
AARRGH!

pls people with a weak heart , dnt see the dam show -.-
so freaky i swear esp the part where she was drag out of the bed, no?

on the 11th, baked another choc mousse cake :)

wentfor dinner with bfbf , behbeh and of course the bday boy :)seriously, just smile -.-
we went to manhattan pmid , foood was as usual. awesome :)
saw hw i gave up in taking a picture-.-
makanan and bday boy :)
i like this picture :D

after dinner wnet to otk 2 cut the cake and well chatroulette, iwas introduced to the site then, dam silly i swear -.-

korkor , caught u in action of stealin cake huhu :P
*notice the blue demon on the side, doing some superman pose* *shakes head nonstop*

lastly , happy bday again, hope u had a great one loser =D

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on a random note, went to genting, last week :)
just for the air and poker.
i will NOT wear a dress n cardi up there again, NEVER. haha so i say.

just some pics.>>

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on a random note, enuf is enuf :)
i shall stick to my New Year's Resolution, set my mind straight.
do wats best for myself :) HUHU
and besides, i need to do some stuff before the deadline eh??

i wish to be kissed under the rain, at least once in my life.
i know, lame right? :p

lots of love,
Jean

new year countdown :)

2010-01-09T02:24:00.007+08:00

my new year;s eve countdown started with a lil house party in timmy's house :)
the same old people came, had tonnes of fun with awesome good food hehe! the nasi briyani and curry , sate etc was so gooood =D

thats heng bfbf , cheryl pretty and jitz baboon :D

we played circle of death, silly game -.-
i started puking at 10 plus , not funny man this game HUHU.
but timmy had to drink the last cup >> i put in sate sauce HAHAHHA

banyak kelian :D
meet the handsome hollow :D

korkor :D:Dinilah jalanmee:D:D
eee demon dex face -.-
thst kevin and maah~

right before countdown,few of us went to putra heights hill to watch the fireworks , awesome view :):)went back 2 continue 2 eat sumore food and well,drink again :D
korkor wat u doin -.-
ma ah :D

bfbf :D:D
after that, around 2 or so, jewin and i joined jim, edmund , jon and felix in pmid :D
the cute lil jimmy :)

edmundd :D:Dthe boys and the tower :D
around 4 plus after drinking went to holiday inn :)
met mich han yau js jackie all there :):)
spent sometime there =D

after that around 5, went to one world hotel 2 find ma slut jesse :D

nice guy erwin :D:D:D

well that kinda summarize hw i started my new year :)

Belief, hope and trust.
hmmm, oh well, its shattered and i understand why.
"appreciate what u have left, u wnt have it soon "
i dunno whats left to say sigh.

honestly, the beginning and end of my every prayer, begins with only your name. so u haveto fly high and reach out for the goals only u can help me achieve =) every night i look at the sky, searching for the mooon, in hope that i can see it every night with all of you looking at it too. i make a lil wish every night, the very same one, while the stars smile down on me as if whispering " it'll come true if you continue wishing harder" :)

I don't know what's left to say about this life I'm willing to leave.
I lived it full and I lived it well, i;m kinda prepared now.
and well, i do not sure what type of friend i am, but i hope i have been one of the best type.

Happy 2010 people :)
may this year be a great one for all of u.

Lots and lots of Love,
Jean

ps. i do Love all of u dear frens :)

another random thought

2010-01-05T08:22:00.004+08:00

you know
they say
"its only when you lose something, then you'll learn to appreciate it"

well said.

i wanna see what happens when i finally disappear :)

and yes, i cant sleep again, slept for half an hour, rawr!!!!

lots of love, Jean

HAPPY 2010!!!!!!!!

a motivational speech from a friend to another :)

2009-12-30T01:08:00.002+08:00

Letting go doesn't mean giving up... it means moving on. It is one of the hardest things a person can do. Starting at birth, we grasp on to anything we can get our hands on, and hold on as if we will cease to exist when we let go. We feel that letting go is giving up, quitting, and that as we all know is cowardly. But as we grow older we are forced to change our way of thinking. We are forced to realize
that letting go means accepting things that cannot be. It means maturing and moving on, no matter how hard you have to fight yourself to do so." ~

and to my dear friend, you do deserve more than she gives you :)
*hope u;re reading this* hugs

love, Jean

*this is pra, he is soo going to kill me if he sees this*

a MUST DO resolution

2009-12-28T16:56:00.005+08:00

k i'm here writing my new year's resolution., more like in 6 months time resolution(thats what i have left) i haveto achieve all these shits below >>

1) actually have the balls to confess to someone
2) learn how 2 play a piano piece in front of that someone
3) scratch the above 2, find the someone first -___-
4) learn how to cook proper curry
5) learn to stand my ground
6) manage to mindfuck my mum 2 gimme a new car
7) be in 2 places at once
8) eat 5 burgers in a row
9) learn to sing in public
10) get a small tattoo at my waist
11) find a way to stop living in denial
12) find a new owner for thumper and bambi
13) get a better sense of direction
14) make sure that my BFFs are healthy and a okay :)
15) drink alot and dont get drunk.
16) manage to win in some game, any game.
17) lower my ego level in relationships etc
18) bake at least 50 diff cakes by then
19) chop all my hair off.
20) be in the someone's arms (whoever he is) before i run out of time.

shall continue another time!

toodles readers :)

am i not good enough, what did i do to deserve this.

i shant be so positive anymore, its utter bullshit and worthless sometimes. its stupid to fight for something not worth fighting for , you know?

and i;ve been sleepin only 2-3 hours a day, sigh, sleepy much.

Lots of Love,
Jean

insomnia

2009-12-28T05:03:00.005+08:00

its 530 am now :)
i cant sleep so here i am again blogging.

hmmm, these few days has been real tough for me.
i have been livin in my own sad denial apparently and i finally realize i need to step out of it. unfortunately for me, it is impossible for me to do that. i know, silly me rite?
it's not like i'm blinded and i dont know what is going on. on the contrary , i'm perfectly aware.its just that i;m too stubborn and actually rational to know which and what is more important.

"silly silly girl, i should have known" sigh.

life is unpredictable, you will never know what will hit you until it does. But when something does, then u know who you can depend on, who you find reliable enough to share things with and be incline to pursue a cure or a solution.

noone should care about someone else so much that they would neglect their own wellbeing. noone should take people for granted. noone should treat people like shit just because it would damage their image or some other crap like that. noone should live in their own world just because it makes them happy and momentarily forget about reality cause in the end you will end up hurting more. noone should put down others just because you can.

noone should listen to my blog as i'm crappin half the time -______-

"stand ur ground, jean"
"stop being stupid"
"go and find a cure for this shit u;re in"
" open ur dam eyes"

i really want the pain to stop,its like a damn dagger

love,
Jean

fuck.

2009-12-24T17:59:00.002+08:00

okay, i officially hate my life.
i know i always sound like a sadistic person.

my mum is shouting at me now while i;m typing this post,
so dam annoying, everyone says "mum scolds for your own good"
BALLS.
BALLS.
BALLS.
'i hate my fucking mum.
i dont wish that something bad happens to her out of my pissy mood now, i;m saying it with my heart.
maybe nothing bad, just wish she loses her voice

its christmas eve and i;m in the midst of shouting at her in return. this is bullshit.
my life is a piece of shit.
my studies was screwed up , thanks to me.
my family is fucked up. and i hate my mum the most, did i mentioned?
my car was fucked today , as the battery died.
my funds are running low,
my health is officially fucked up.
all i have left is friends. and frankly, i dont even know whether some of them treasure me or not.
so yes, fuck my life.
i hate it
i am not suicidal, but yes i do wish i was reborn.

life changing phonecall

2009-12-21T01:38:00.002+08:00

dear blog,

today has been a real dissapoinment. i got some news lol. just a phone call which turned my life around.
oh well, oh well, i did this to myself, so yea FML :(

when i was happy

painful memories

2009-12-20T05:11:00.001+08:00

dear blog,

i've been thinking about alot of bullshit lately.
hmmm, it has been clear to me that time will decide everything, i should stop worrying and go with the flow. if things get better, it gets better.

rite??

fuck checkups etc.
i need someone to tell me that everything'll be fine. even tho it wouldnt. sigh. this is so dam painful, literally.
oh yes, i havent mention have i that i'm scared of needles aka injections.
on that note, fuck you hospitals =(

lalala, its 5 plus in the morning and i cant sleep again!
this is actually kinda depressing.

k sorry for the emo talk, shall start bloggin properly now :D

had a random trip 2 genting tat day with kay , bfbf, kent and yeekie :) pls view my fb for more pics :) shall upload some >>

one of the many pictures of awesome christmas decos!! :D

:D

motion master :D

the attempt 2 enter casino, fail.
saw that, i even tried enterin the casino with my Aldo heels -.-

kent;s sexay ass paired up with evisu!!

night came, this is my new PJ >> it was silk, so i felt uber warm even tho the weather was cold :P

thats henessy btw, we drank at night hoho :D
woman was drunk that night, poor thing :(:(

the boys and i decided to head out to old town for supper :)
notice hw my dress matches the flower :D:D
gosh, wat eyebags -.-
fails. =D

next morning , >>
went and eat marybrown again and walkaround :):)

thats bout it, go check my fb for more pics :)
i better try sleepin again, needa wake up early 2morrow ! rawr

love,
Jean

so i grow a lil bit older :):)

2009-12-13T23:39:00.001+08:00

today 's a sunday. i decided to pig out and stay in today, so i can write and update my almost-dying blog :)

first things first, i;m sorry to you faithful readers who wrote me emails , i have not much time to mail back all of you. and i shall put in more pics as requested for u guys!! last but not least, thanks for ur concern about me.your words of encouragement means alot to me!! god bless you guys :)

my blog post is usually quite emotional and depressing as this is where i state my feelings and how i feel. sometimes when i just feel all alone and stuck in my own world, i write. sometimes when i feel like i need to converse with someone but cant seem to find a way due to fear or just plain ego, i write, and PRAY they read -.- sometimes i;m just too happy that i dont know how to express how i feel, i write :)
so this is in a way, how i rant, how i state my feelings, how i am. my blog is something like my very own diary *which somehow the world can see* hmm doesnt quite make sense there.
before i start on my pathetic worthless life, lemme continue with the main purpose of this blog post, how i celebrated my 19th bday :D >>

well, on the erm, 20th i think, on a friday, i went to Jun Shuo's house for the epic barbeque bonanza :) it was called an erotic party as seafood is as good as sex, or something like that -_____-

went early to help with marinating and setting up the stuff etc , ended up watching cartoon -.- as shown below >>
btw, jun shuo's hse is like the nicest house i've seen so far!! mainly due to his unlimited supply of chocies XD hehe

that's han , yap and shakie's leg :P
meet my korkor, timmy :)
this is my bfbf, heng :)

in the kitchen with my shakie doing ladylike stuff xD

me n muh asshole :)
this is jun shuo, or what i call him " EEEEEEEEEEEEE" =p
we went and tapao epic fried rice !! XD
thats asc, and my new fren peggy :)
she's a very sweet girl! :)

now meet my curry, pra !!:)
fail -___-
thats martin to my right :)

the foood =D
the boys cooking :)

after eating the awesome food, suddenly tim asked me to sit next to him cause he wanna talk 2 me. started talking nonsense about trips all. at the same time, i had a HUGE urge to peeeeeeee. yeap, mother nature called me -.-
" kor , i go pee 1st k"
" NONONONO!"
" why laaaaaaaa? i really really wanna pee :("
" i talk to you finish first, come sit down"

walked next to him , sit down and talk.

after talking for another 2 min,
"kor, i really need to gooo! XD"

stand up

everyone shouted " nonoonono !"

sudd behind me, jeremy aka jalanmy brought out the bday cake and surprise me :)
i was tearing! this is my first and best surprise party ever =D

soooo sweet rite :D

blow cake:D

MORON -______- my face and hair was so oily and well, dirty :(:(:(

k my face was colourful , i noe xD
go ahead and laugh :P
thats chee liang in white and kevin in orange btw !

he HAD to run -.- was busy chasing him cause of my face !! rawr, muka mintak penumbuk xD

hahaha poor asc, kena tackle :p
bfbf:D
thats shing behind btw -.-

i gave up taking a proper picture at this point -.-
see what i mean?at least it wasnt a silly face =D
thats mr yellow, he is TALL XD

meet jackie :D
muh curry :D

this is my dear dory,zen :)
and jimjim :D:D

ma ah~

we drank absolute after that huhu, the rest of the boys adjourned to play poker -.-

it was by far the nicest surprise bday i ever had :) and i;m glad of having such awesome frens :)
love all of u =D
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in the 22nd thats a sunday , wnet to KL hilton for bday buffet dinner with the family :)
had awesome buffet food and just took pics >>

mummy and i
doesnt he look like doraemon -.-

thats the twin, faye :)

and i'm gonna set things straight here! she's my fraternal twin, NOT my identical twin! rawr

pictures of faye and i :)

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on a tuesday , which was the 24th,
timmy drove me muscles bfbf and asshole to ampang hill for my coutdown :)
he says the view up there is spectacular =)
we drove and listen to love songs all the way up, shakie was NOT happy xD

tahts thumper :D

after bout 45 min, we reached :)
thx korkor for driving me up tehre :)
look at the aweosme lights :D

look at them-.-

we ate in gasoline!! teh food was awesomee :D

eat eat drink drink :P
this extra thing we ordered is called dragonball, LAME -.-

after dinner, we went and walk around to take pics >>
seee!! so pretty right :D
ahh~ posing d :p

HOHO korkor kill shakie xD

an awesome picture above rite? credits to me, the photographer XD
I love the lights in KL :)
look below, dont i look so innocent and angelic -.-
sooo NOT me xD hahahha

saw hw cute korkor is, swatting flies!:XD

omg, bfbf fails ! XD

jalanmy posing with umbrella, "macho" xD

*rubrub belly*

thx again BFF jalanmy and timmy, bfbf heng, shakie dex, couldnt have ask for a better bday countdown :)
love every single one of ur company and u guys did make my bday this year by far the best one =D
to all 4 of my precious true frens , thnx for everything again :)

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on bday itself, went out for dimsum in morning :)
then lunch in tony romas with the slutty brother, jesse =D

thx slut for spending time with me !:)
went to ben and nick;s cafe after that to celebrate with the other guys :)
meet faye, my twin :D
that is me :D
and meet my most wise and sweet fren, bwackie :D
amirr :D
my listening ear and mr funny, kubhan :D:D
hot stuff ilyas!:D
thats ashvin,another hot stuff ;D
meet cutie sukh and handsome amamadam! :D
and thx shaunnie for buying faye and i the cake :D
yes we cut cake in ac xD

anotehr choc indulgence?:O:O

faye : " i want to have bigger eyes than jean"

OPEN EYES >>
results :
-_____-
meet rabin:)

choc cake on us ! :D

after that went melur yumcha with heng and timmy :)rushed home, bathe and rummaged thru my stack of clothes!!
realised i had NOTHING 2 wear :( sniffs
just randomly take blue stuffs to wear :P
hehe faye and i were off to pmid manhattan fish market to celebrate our bday :)
meet my kittie !:)
sohai :D
pegggy :)
meet adeline :)

look at these boys :) oh yes,thats choong on the right :)
thats pauliee and michelle's bf :)
meet aaron :)thats's ciao, faye's bf -.-
michelle in between :)

FOOD !:D
keong2 and ernest :)
thats yeekie :D:D
EEEEE! us 5 girls, munmun on left :)

faye and i cutting cake =D

went rock cafe after that for poker session >>>

tadaaaaaa~ there goes my bday this year =D
i really had a blast~
thnx again 2 everyone!! *giving slobby kisses and hugs to everyone* MWAHS~
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well today has been a really depressing day for me,
i dont even know why -.- fuck.
here i am all alone, thinking of what a friend said
"am i alive, or just breathing?"
i feel like i;m just breathing sometimes you know. i ponder too much i know, i cant help it sigh. pathetic ol' me.

its like everything i do is self inflicted. i have noone to blame but myself, i should have listened , maybe i would have prevented this, maybe i could have more time. tears are so useless now. haha oh well,like the saying " life's short, live life to the fullest." WELL SAID.
i may never know what may happen in the near future, so i need to hold everyone dear to me, close to my heart.

this is my question now to all of you jean.apparently-ers,
if you found out you have one year left in this world, what would you do?:)

shall blog much more often nw, i promise!! *pinky swear*
have loads of pics!!

Lots of Love,
Jean

friends :)

2009-11-20T00:25:00.004+08:00

i have been real busy lately people,
so sorry for the lack of updates :P
and to my many loyal readers, who has been pestering me to update, here u go !

well, i have been doing alot of self-reflecting lately,
i asked myself who and what is most important in my life,
i now know what to prioritize and i can finally differentiate between whats right and wrong :)
i know who are my friends now, those who really care and those who doesn't.
friends are those that will always have your back, i have seen friendship that has a bond so tight that nothing can tear them apart. i was jealous of them yet i am proud to have seen the love and connection they had for each other.

i was dam naive, i trusted and i was dissapointed.

see, life throws many obstacles at each and everyone of us, its all up to us to get through it.
i'm not family -oriented, so basically my friends are who i rely on and they;re my everything.
without them, i wouldnt have a way to go through the shit i'm goin through now.

noone knows, but i am hurting,
real bad.
i paced back and forth all this time, thinkin.
thinking thinking and thinking.
i never had a chance, really . i tried.
i never had the upper hand in this shithole.
i believe in smiling, laughing and never look sad,
i hold back all my tears, so noone knows how i look when i'm in pain.
i'm scared to let go cause i rather put on a mask then see those worried eyes, looking at me, clouding the normal lighted-up adorable eyes which never fails to make me smile.
a friend told me that putting a mask of sanity is important to avoid sympathy and being treated differently,
how right he is I must say.
everyone should appreciate what they have , and live life to the fullest, no?
cause u never know what would happen in the near future :)

i'm turning 19 soon, hmm pass my teenage years huh?
well i would love to spend it with my loved ones :D:D
i hope i wont have to countdown alone this year * fingers crossed*

and sorry for this kinda emo post,
i promise i shall update soon with sooooooooo many pics, as my holz are here !=)

Lots of love,
Jean

hello u :)

2009-10-01T22:56:00.002+08:00

i know i havent blog for a long time, sorry dear readers :)
thx for dropping emails 2 me u guys!!

here i am goin to update more cause i'm in FTZ now. yes the guys are dota-in -__-
sheeeeeeesh~
dota again. never thought it was a good game cause i could never master it ! UGH
if u were in my shoes nw, hearin their dramatic reactions at every move they make, its actually pretty amusing and funny :D
nvr have i seen them puttin so much concentration in something, hmmmso in a way its a good game hahahaha :)

here are some entertaining pics >>

i shall upload some of my pics soon :)
howver i constantly update my facebook page with pictures and twitter !
so feel freee to add me, jean,apparently-ers !

twitter name : jeanfrenzy

Love,
Jean

movies galoree :D

2009-09-17T01:02:00.001+08:00

well, this post is gonna be bout movie that i've been seein in the pass month, in total random order :)
one of the best GRUESOME movies i have ever seen>>
Final Destination 4
lets just put it this way, this movie is not for the faint hearted :)
i almost DIED myself when i saw the show. the BFF's jems n timmy keep reminded me to pry my hands off my eyes :p
it;s really amazin how the scriptwriter thought of so many ways to murder someone.
overall, i give it a 7 /10 !:D
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the next show i'm gonna talk bout is GI Joe : rise of the cobra :)
welll, what can i say, EYE candy GALORE in the show!!
channing tatum looks smokin hawt i swear, and marlon funny wayans showed his EPIC body in the show :p
sienna miller was stunning in her corset , ish i jealous -.-
well, the graphics in the show was awesomee, the storyline was goood and bsically i didnt get bored or even bother checkin the time when i was watchin the movie.
i watched it twice, mind u. thats hw much i like it :D

partner in crime : amir, clement, faye , shaun and i
2nd time p. i. c. : BFFs
rating : 9/10
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next show is the utterly famous show, The Ugly TRuth.
might i add that that i've fallen deeper in love with gerard butler :) he makes me go OMG OMG everytime i see his show xD
he was a major ass in the show but in the end he did fell in love with the control freak ( katherine heigl)
cliche?? yes it was!
was it a good show? i thnk it was an AWESOMEEE show :D
partner in crime : jeremyy :D
i rate it bout 9/10 !
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next show that i watched is dance flick HAHHA
any show, ANY show produced ,directed and acted by the wayans brothers are just plain FARNEEEEEE :D
the whole show was hilarious, esp the part where the mum left her baby in her locker :P

partner in crime : BFFs again :)
rate : 8/10
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AHHHHHH~ the next show, a cantonese show.>>
bout like secret service saving the king or some shit liddat xD
it was seriously DAM DAM DAM funny, i would say funnier than dance flick :p
coudnt stop laughin throughout the whole show
i recommend anyone who hasnt watch this to watch :)
partner in crime : asc and jems :)
rating : 9/10

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aliens in the attics, a not bad show :)
erm more for kiddies, but i kinda liked it too!
the lil kid was Oh.so.adorable, i wanted to HUGGG HeR :D
and ashley tisdale n her bf was SMOKIN!

partner in crime : the BFFs
rating : 5/10
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the next show is UP. it's a touchin adventure type of shw but this old man tryin 2 fulfill his deceased wife wishes :)
in the end was kinda touchin, i saw it in 3 D ,nt much diff tho xD
i loveeeeee the cute lil fat boi who sounded like the cutest creature in the world :Dpartner in crime : amir wanji ilyas kubhan denisaa :)
ratin : 7/10
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district 9 was bout aliensssssss
i thought i wouldnt like it, but i did :D:D it was dam funny and random
from the aliens being called prawns and to them eatin catfood.
its basically a very gruesome show as there's plenty of body parts flyin around but i love the part that they put in some romantic element in the end :)partner in crime : BFFs again :)
ratin : 8/10

friesss :)

carls junior with the bffs :)
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the last show im gonna blog bout is Imagine that >>
didnt quite like the show altho it was really quite funny
lazy to describe -.-
partner in crime : BFFs
Rating : 6.5/10
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ths is dam random>
after lunch one day with mich cheryl denesh jem heng in station one,
joined kay for dessert in pmid >>:)

played gold at nite -_____-

shall blog bout tim and cheryl's bday and merdeka countdown soon :)

Lots of love,
Jean

PD trip and bout 300 pictures x)

2009-09-02T03:58:00.000+08:00

dear readers,

sory for not updating my blog for practically , EVER.
well u see, i had plenty of pictures to upload teehee ~
i'm dedicating this post for my PEEDEE tripS only!

few weeks back, muscles timmy and i decided to go to Port Dickson to survey the area as we plan to go for a holiday in PD the week after that :)
thus the waking up at 10 am in the morning -.-
i vaguely remember sleepin bout only 2 hours the day before. yes i do blame you, mr TV -______-

tim and i had chicken rice before the trip over :D:D

that's jeremy and timmy :D

and the constant supply of chpsterss :D

after bout an hour and 15 min, we reached the place where we were staying, the eagle ranch resort :)

the reception area :)

the bandwagon :) everything was really pretty and the environment, facilities there were much better than i expected !

HAR DEE HAHAHA~

after surveyin almost the whole area, i begged the 2 fellas to follow me to see the cute horsess! :Dnope this is not a horse, this si a turkey =D
meeet dessert storm below>>

yes, goats are scared of him :p

Next, we went and survey the first beach. AND DAMM, it was FILTHY!!
look at the sand colour, and trust me, if u put ur face in teh water here, the water was acidic enough to dissolve ur face.
OKAY, i'm exagerating, probably bad enough to give u like 10000 pimples tho -.-

he wrote : jean dam ~~fail~~ fascinating :D

LOOK AT THE WATER. URGH -__-

next we were off to the CLEAN and awesome beach :)

spot the colour difference between both sea waters 0,0

after the survey ,we had KFC and headed home :)

had loads of fun with my BFF;s mwahahaha:)
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the following saturday, was my epic trip to PD, with the college peeps :)
timmmy was kind enuf to fetch kay and i to his house !

jeremy showing off his skills again *rolls eyes* x)

jesse attempting to be COOL, butf ail as usual.

:D:D:D
we sat on the viper.

and YES, i was really really TRAUMATISED after i get out of the ride, but deng was it FUN or wat xD
the guys :)
random pictures taken by jackie >>

after the scary scary viper, i sat on banana boat with the guys, We dropped into the water for a total of 7 times !!
and it was BRUTAL! i was knee-ed in my face, elbowed at the nose , kicked etc all around when we all fell in the water together xD
nevertheless, it was really fun :)

after the banana boat, we changed and headed back to eagle ranch :)

kay and the dudes :)

meet my abang shin chan, ji kuan :D
he was wearing pants okay :D

the pretty gurls :)

we bathed and change for dnner after that, dinner in eagle ranch itself!
they had awesome food for a reasonable price ! yum :D

awwww, meet ji kuan :D

DINNER :D:D

after dinner ,it was watching TV plus drinking time :D

we played circle of death >>
poor jeremy was targeted the whole time :P

yea and thanks to the people who took care of me that day :D:D:D

i know my pyjamas are kinda funnee :p
next day , we had buffet breakfast :)

and the guys were off to paintball, thats asc by the way, terrorist much? xD
BUT a cute terrorist!
kay and i went go-karting ! itw as fun ,but stupid go -kart made her fon kinda spoiled -.- rawr!

we headed home after that and raeched lala chong restaurant back in KL :)

AWESOME AWESOME TIME WITH THEM :)

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the week after that, i was suppose to go langkawi with my high school frens , instead they decided to go PD cause it was nearer and cheaper -.-
SO YES, i went again. i thought it would be boring as i practically went a week ago, but it was kinda fun hanging out with the guys again :D
like a lil reunion :)

we went to wong soon kee for early breakfast first :)

reached around 1 and checked in first :)

off to the beach and the waves were CRAZEEEE~

han choong fell of the banana boat , it was adorable xD
sat viper with nigel and lim and it was horrrrrid as the waves were CRAZY! nigel fell of teh boat, poor thing! thank god i sat in the middle hoho :)

we went back to eagle ranch and played beach volleyball.

as u can see, when the ball came my direction, i ducked instead of hitting the ball back.

at a certain point, i gave up and went and join the girls at the pool :)
meet mun and faye :D

that's faye's leg =D

afterthat, it was off to dinner :)

gays xDwater tower XD *inside joke*

dinner was awesme, as usual :)
this is us playing tabooo! uber fun! :D

after that, circle of death again :)

the next morning, went for buffet breakfast again :D
after taht , us girls decided to swim the calories off -.-

we haeded home after swimming and had dim sum back in KL!
there were 2 tables and our table ate RM100 worth of dimsum whle teh other table had only RM60 xD
damm our appetites :P

had to send Lim back to Russia at airport that night, it was a bittersweet moment :(

shall blog more bout it soon, promise :)

Love,
Jean

promise :)

2009-08-24T13:55:00.002+08:00

i know, i know, i've been so lazy -.-
i've lost the urge of blogging for some reason :(
hmmmmm, i shall find the urge back in awhile, i hope !!

well i've been busy, seeing movies and goin on trips ,
and i have a 3000 word essay to hand in by thurs, GREAT -____-

shalll blog very soon, promise (;

love,
Jean